Why did you listen to me?
Not cast views like a hook
I talked in thoughtless parody
And failed to grasp the look
It takes time to remove the salt
I tossed into the scars
I thought you were here in thought
Not another day at large
I'm sorry I never kicked those words loose sooner
My logic tied in knots and frayed
Wasn't it you that made me lose
Before I'd learned to play?
What do you have left?
What makes you laugh out loud?
The wind took my troubles away
And you got lost in the sound
I found myself in being there
And lost you there somehow
You may be all by yourself
At least you're always right now
CHORUS
I'm sorry I never pushed these thoughts loose sooner
I just couldn't seem to find the way
I always tried to make this work
When I should have gone away
You knew I wasn't yours anymore
You knew I wasn't yours anymore
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Hold my hand
Walk with me through this promised land
Today
Skip with me
Amongst the forest, through the trees
I feel
Groovy like the lines along my sheets
And I'm wanderin'
And I'm wonderin'
When the world upon your back
Is too much for you to hack
So you lie in bed and dream
And make believe
You could feel groovy just like me
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What's on my mind?
What's left to be said?
My ears have long since tired
Of the problems in my head
Can I please sign
Off my fears along this dark line...
A life of lies has plagued me
For longer than I care to share with you
You don't care about me
But that's okay 'cause I could care less too.
When was the time?
When I ceased to believe
That dreaming brought not what we want
But gave just what we need?
Could I please find
Some solace in what is not mine?
CHORUS
You may find I'm different
From pen to page and mouth to ear
I'd like to be as flippant
As you were when you said you could not hear
Me.
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Your silence frightens me, although
I can see it in your eyes
The words come just as hard to you
There was a time when I could tell you
All that's on my mind
But I'm wiser than my years
If I said I loved you would you want me to say more?
Or if I said I need you would you run right out that door?
I wish that you would speak up first because I'm falling more each day
I'd like to say I love you but then what would you say?
Although actions they speak volumes
I can't seem to find the words
To deafen the silence between us
One day we may stop and listen
And laugh until we cry
At the simplistic nature of this song
CHORUS
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If I could fly away, I'd fly away and hear you say
That he was always good, misunderstood, but did what he could
And he would laugh at times, be sad sometimes, and not say why
But now that boy is gone, far too long, but he left a song
To say...
Don't you cry for me, you were never there when I needed you to be
Don't you cry for me, I'll be ok, yes, you will see
Don't you cry for me, because I never was what you wanted me to be
Don't you cry for me, because the pain inside was one you could not see
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Said I wandered
Wanted a cover
Cold night is drifting inside
Said I wanted
You to wander
Through my lingering mind
I said goodbye
But you're still around
Wanted you to
Leave much sooner
Your abscence has filled up this void
When you ponder
This silence I offer
Think of a time when I cared
I said goodbye
Why are you still around?
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You and me, it seemed to be
A life far better than a dream
(Until you left me)
Night from day, in a slow decay
I lost myself when you went away
(After you left me)
And now I wish I'd heard
Before you left this world
Why did you have to leave me?
Why did you have to leave?
Hit or miss, lost innocence
A dream to find much more than this
(Is why you left me)
Loss or win, the state I'm in
All will never be forgiven
(Because you left me)
And now I wish I knew
Those thoughts you took with you
Why did you have to leave me?
Why did you have to leave?
CHORUS
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I forget me
Without my sanity
Oblivious to my oblivion
Lost in my rebellion
You control me
Your crowns of fallacy
And if I cleansed my soul of this
Could you blame me?
And I fell down again
But was caught just the same
Trying hard to forget
From where I came
I'll forgive me
For thoughts of blasphemy
And so I lost my sense of pride
You gave me so much more inside
CHORUS
And my holocaust dreams
Have plagued me for years
I can't forget all the pain
I won't forgive for my fears
Do you know where I've been?
Do you remember me?
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Hey there, friend
It's troubling time
I need to leave
The bottle again
A land far away
Calls my name
A land of no depression
Inebriated again
I'm tired of the drown
I'm lost in searching
For what I have not found
A narrow path
Calls my name
A path of no depression
I am no longer frightened
By these winds and waves around me
I am not scared of the earth and sky
I am no longer enlightened
The eye is the lamp of the body
I am not scared of the present time
My will is weak, my flesh too strong
This peace I seek till they Kingdom comes
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When I'm wrong, will you close the door behind me?
When I'm gone, will you forget the truth I lived?
When the light's burnt out and I'm going gone
When I've crossed the line between right and wrong
Will you open the gates?
I'm coming home today
All those demi-Gods with their hands of steel
Cut me up all day so at night I'd heal
It's time to show the idle chat
Felt all too real
And now I don't know how I've lived this long
How my heart can beat when my soul's long gone
Isn't it funny how life it carries on?
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I don't know when I lost my way
Could you stand by me once more?
And cast aside the skeletons at my door
Outside it rains
And the rainfall washes tears out of my eyes - a thin disguise
Figures my heart would sell out now
Don't know where it was 'til now
But I'll find the strength somehow to carry on
And with this simple song to you
I've felt the words that cut right through
When light years past, I'm left behind
And this two-chord song is all the strength I'd find
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I'm as stunned as a deer in headlights
As confused as I've ever been
I'd like to duplicate my head rush
But I'm at a loss for sin
Life has a way of changing
Everything we've ever dreamt
I'd love to stay and talk like this
But I'm feeling all but spent
I'd like to be the man you need
With heart well under my sleeve
I'd like to be the man you see
Inside of me
I'd like to wax poetically
Dispense the words inside of me
If only I could cut the ties
That bind you
I'm as frightened as a wolf in crosshairs
As scared as I've ever been
I'm tired of these moments where
I feel I just can't win
If only you could speak these thoughts
Inside my head
The spoken word is far less harsh
Than those words that remain unsaid
CHORUS
Time's never been my friend
It leaves no time to mend
I have but one thing left to send
To you
CHORUS
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Once, twice, I feel it's alright
I'll face this alone tonight
Let me be, I'll make it mine
Dear one, give me the vine
You say it'll be ok
I've been alone with time to pray
And yes, I'm scared, but not so much
I've gone and lost my human touch
You know you let me down
I wanted to be a big star
I wanted to be Jay Farrar
If I could have placed my bet
I'd have taken what was left
I've searched for reason
Found temporary treason
I used to know what for
I'm not so sure anymore
You know you let me down
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You see I've got some whiskey
And I've got this Holy Ghost
He drinks my problems with me
And I feed him more than most
He lays his head aside me
And hears all that I say
He cares a lot about me
But caring less is still okay
One more try is all I'm asking
One more time is all I want
One more try?
You've been hiding
You've been poking at my bruise
Pecking at the surface of my wounds
Where my peacefulness exudes
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